'' Slowly my heartbeats were stopping. I   thought that my end was near, but it was only the beginning ''.

Jacob Schmitz

Back in 2018

Everything started with a miserable day. I woke up, brushed my teeth, changed my clothes, ate my breakfast and left home. Unfortunately, when I was crossing the street, a bus hit me and I ended up dying.

I wish I was lying, but I'm not. It's amazing how human life is so fragile that it ends up so fast, don't you think?

I thought that after death, the soul of our bodies just vanished like the petals of a dandelion in the wind. It seems like I was wrong because my conscience remains here, in this place darker than the night and empty as the sky. Time doesn’t pass. I feel like a stone, unable to do anything. I'm stuck like a bird in a cage, the only thing I can do is look to darkness in this vastness. It felt like I would stay in that distress forever. Suddenly, a bright light vanished with all that darkness. It was so brilliant, that I thought, for a moment, I would be blind. However, I think this didn't make any sense because I was already dead.

A graceful creature appeared with delicate features and long silver straight hair. The eyes were red like a sunset in the Summer, also the personlike figure had two white wings curved around the top of his head. To complete this angelical appearance, the creature had three pairs of white feathered wings and was wearing a white silk robe. I suppose that's what people call an angel. The angel opened the arms and spoke, but not in words, directly to my mind.

"Jacob Schmitz, you will be judged for all your sins committed during your life" - the angel told me.

Ha, of course something like this would happen in the afterlife. I hope this situation ends soon, I don't want to think about those memories that made me suffer during life.

"Your first Judge : the one you were cruelest to in life." - said the angel.

Wait...people from my life will judge me?

If this judgment will be this way, it's easier to send me straight to hell.

I tried to close my eyes because I didn't want to see what was coming, but I couldn't, something kept them open. The angel hadn't moved a muscle, but I knew it was him somehow. After that, I started to feel something approaching, I looked to the side and saw a thin person of medium height, with snow-clear skin and  shoulder-length brown hair and honey-colored eyes. It was her. I knew it would be her, but that didn't make it any easier to bear.

"Hey...you arrived too early "- she said with a sad smile.

I couldn't meet her eyes, my lips only trembled, mouthing empty motions. I tried to look away, but I couldn't. It should be the angel again, to perform this melancholic scene. There was nothing I wanted more than to squeeze my eyes to shut, but I couldn't. I was forced to watch the sadness in her eyes as she spokes.

"Well, in the beginning we didn't get along very well, you rarely answered me when I tried to start a conversation. When you told me to stop trying to befriend you, it was kind of painful because you were the only person I knew, but it was even more painful when you started making the same jokes that others made with me. I was alone in that immensity "- she said with sadness in her eyes.

Before I could get courage to apologize, she slipped away into the light. I felt so awful, those feelings were turning my stomach, it felt like those feelings would go up my throat and come out, I felt so humanly sick.

" Your second and last judge: the one you were most kind to" - The angel said, and offered no rest.

Again, I heard something approaching

"Don't you expect to see me again, do you? "

I was shocked, I was one of the people who hurt her feelings, and I wasn't able to help her in the end ... it doesn't make sense, how could I have been kind to her since I’d just hurt her?

"Even though you hurt me, in the end you were the only one who managed to understand what I felt, you were the only one to apologize to me .... but it was too late. I don't blame you for that, after all, having someone who listens to you with an open heart is one of the best things that people can have..."- she said with a soft smile.

"No, no, no! I contributed to your death. This makes no sense, I didn't help you. Is this some kind of sick joke? Do angels make pranks now? " - I gazed at her.

"Come on … It was my decision… Even though you were kind to me in the end, the sickness had already stolen me, and it would be impossible to cure myself in a toxic environment, even though you were by my side….but now we have all the time in the world….now it's useless to cry over the past...why you don't come with me?" - she held out her hand to me.

"I don't deserve it" - I said.

"Don't be so harsh on yourself, it doesn't help at all… trust me" - she replied.

She took my hand, and we were swallowed by the light, she and I were now together….but in peace and forever.

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